PS appointment/onco appointment/Faslodex horror

On the 22nd I saw my plastic surgeon. She's reluctant to go forward with lat flap surgery because of the recurrence. Very disappointing! She said she's concerned about my health and wants me to heal from the last surgery. She said if she gets OK from my oncologist and breast surgeon she'll do it. I see her again in 3 months.
Same day at oncologist: waiting for appointment when a woman came up and informed me that I can apply for a grant too cover the Faslodex. She showed me that it costs over $3000 per dose and my cost would be almost $400 per dose. I've had 3 loading doses and now I'll be on a once a month schedule. Whew! Had a meltdown over that! Now I'm waiting to hear if I qualify for the grant. There's no fear like the fear of not being able to pay for a drug that could potentially save your life.
Oncologist never has answers to my questions. He said it's OK for me to go ahead with reconstruction if that's what I want.
I'm very happy that my WBC, hemoglobin, and platelets are in normal range! Red blood cells are still slightly low.