Everybody looks good

As I was checking in at the hospital for my labs & ultrasound  today I noticed how nice the receptionist (?) looked. Her hair was a great color, she was tanned, short fingernails, wearing a suit. I feel like something sloth-like, rough, and messy. My hair is crappy but I want to grow it out so I have a ponytail to fit thru the ponytail cut out area in the back of my new climbing/SAR helmet (yeah, dumb but I don't care). I wear the same jeans or literally the same pair of shorts, and t-shirts because I'm too lazy to go into my dresser for other things. Had to move stuff to puppy-proof and the dresser is blocked (that's my story and I'm sticking to it!). Scared to shower because I'm afraid to get my PICC wet. Cant color my hair myself because I might get it all over my picc dressing and then I'd have to shower! I pick at my cuticles. I paint my toenails with sparkly polish because then it doesn't matter if I mess it up.  I wear a compression sleeve on my left arm and a stockinette on the right to contain the extension line from my PICC. I rarely wear makeup and have a nice tan on the fingers of my left hand above the compression sleeve. I felt better when the receptionist stood up for a moment and I saw that she was chubby around the middle just like me.
Doesn't matter. I put on my sunglasses and feel like a badass anyway. I'm doing OK.