Words

Today I was gathering papers to copy to send to my Medicaid caseworker. I was looking in my oncology patient portal for info to show that I get the Faslidex injections every month & came across this...

 

Now, I know my situation. I have known since U of M when that doctor so cruelly told me that I have incurable cancer. I saw the initial staging reports. I read. But to see the words "stage IV" and 

"palliative" was hard. It made me sad and shaky. I'm lucky because stage IV is the metastasis to distant organs or bones. It has not gone into my bones or organs yet. I'm happy about that. I'm just sad because I'm afraid. I'm afraid and I feel so alone.

Cancer has shattered so many of my dreams.