Funny

As I was going down to my room I was happy that I'd be able to have the window open tonight. Then I caught a whiff...got stronger as I walked into my room. I said "Ugh, skunk! Are you serious?!" Then I realized as I was holding my phone I had pushed the button for Siri. He replied: "Yes, I'm not allowed to be frivolous." Ha ha! Too funny!

Surgery

Lat dorsi flap on right side scheduled Sept 29 at 7:30am.

What no one tells you

Important to have someone especially after a surgery to listen to instructions when you're still drugged up!

Words

Today I was gathering papers to copy to send to my Medicaid caseworker. I was looking in my oncology patient portal for info to show that I get the Faslidex injections every month & came across this...

 

Now, I know my situation. I have known since U of M when that doctor so cruelly told me that I have incurable cancer. I saw the initial staging reports. I read. But to see the words "stage IV" and 

"palliative" was hard. It made me sad and shaky. I'm lucky because stage IV is the metastasis to distant organs or bones. It has not gone into my bones or organs yet. I'm happy about that. I'm just sad because I'm afraid. I'm afraid and I feel so alone.

Cancer has shattered so many of my dreams.

ER on Friday

Cellulitis once again. IV abx but no hospital stay. I'm getting tired of this!

Red shoulder

A specific kind of pain

So...my right shoulder started hurting yesterday afternoon. I assumed it was from using the weight machines the day before but in the back of my mind I was screaming NO NO NO NO! Sure enough around 11pm I noticed the red spots forming.

I've felt a little "off" this week. I had my injection on Tues. And it's about the time infection shows up. I'm so annoyed.

I took a 500mg cephalexin that was supposed to be for my dog.

So incredibly annoyed!!!

Surgery is a go!

Saw plastic surgeon yesterday and we are going ahead with the lat dorsi recon on the right side. She said I'll get to keep my nipple which kind of surprised me but is pretty cool! Just hope for no expander infection!